I want to change. Really, I do! I want to be that person who wakes up early, pulls on bright, shiny sneakers, and arrives at the gym before sunrise.
I want to be the woman on the treadmill, pumping iron, and working up a sweat. I want it intensely, but becoming that person seems impossible.
I say I want to change, but the truth is I want to want it. But I don't want it enough to put in the effort that's required.
You see, I dread consistency. Resolution. Habit. Routine. Those words give me the heebie-jeebies. Ugh! Just the thought of doing the same thing every day... excruciating! I know that's ridiculous. I brush my teeth, take a shower, prepare meals, and drink lots of coffee every day, so it’s possible — just not natural.
It's a fact: Routines are harder for a person with ADHD. Many ADHD traits make new behaviors more difficult to adopt. Change is hard work. Habit-forming change is downright daunting.